It is official; I am now 'a pensioner',
and my life has improved immeasurably;
now what is expected of me is limited
to being a cogent and grateful consumer,
as if I was not one before,
when it mattered more.
Thursday, 30 September 2021
Now We Are Sixty
Wednesday, 29 September 2021
The Landscape Of Earthy Delights
This is the most sensual and yet tasteful film poster I have ever seen. I saw the film 'In the realm of the senses' in 1992, when the British film censors, the BBFC, relented to release it with nearly no edits for sex or violence. When it was first presented to the BBFC in 1976 was all but banned, they refused to give the film a certificate, though it was still seen and seen unedited. The censors encouraged it to be shown but in private cinema clubs only.... |
Tuesday, 28 September 2021
Other Catch 22's Are Available
Pity the older amateur artist
who enjoys his creative work,
and yet when he tries to share it
in a commercial environment
he finds himself knocked back.
He has to put a price on it
that is more than it is worth
knowing it unlikely to sell
at any price hr puts on it,
and yet for it to be shown
it has to have a price on it,
when it's proper price,
and real value,
are in it's appreciation.
Monday, 27 September 2021
Inequality Is Us
As George Orwell might have observed
'some families are more equal than others'*
which is to say that 'the family' is as likely
a means of corruption, deceit, or even virtue,
as any other organ or mechanism within society.
That family is the organ of society without which
there would not be a society does not make it
matter more that family be seen as virtuous.
On the contrary, where virtue is apt to fail
it matters more that forgiveness be there
to soften the sense of failure, as used by the survivors
particularly where the failure of the failed
includes being blind to exactly how they failed.
This forgiveness from survivors,
in spite of the family that failed them,
is an important marker of the difference
between lives lived only in the past tense,
stewing old feuds, reliving old wounds,
and making sense of life afresh in the present.
*The original quote was of course
'All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others',
referring to the rise and rise of Napoleon the pig as leader,
and later the corruptor, of the equality on 'Animal Farm'.
Sunday, 26 September 2021
Diet And Temperament
Saturday, 25 September 2021
Upstairs/Downstairs
God lives upstairs
God does not exist
God is Love; this proves
how real love is to many.
Upstairs is real to everyone,
but without going there
it is hard to prove
who or what lives there
and it seems like
too long a long journey.
So few want to find out
what they actually believe
that it is hard to believe
that they believe in anything
-even in the existence of 'upstairs'.
Friday, 24 September 2021
Ars Longa Vita Brevis
Thursday, 23 September 2021
Surplus Entertainment?
Several years ago,
in the era of video, CD's and DVD's,
probably before the advent of Blu ray,
it became mildly fashionable
to ask another 'How many man hours
of entertainment are there on your shelves?
How much of it have you watched
and how much of it just sits there
having no notice taken of it?'
The answers to which,
if ever they were given,
were often embarrassing.
The 'surplus entertainment'
that sits on a shelf that I prefer
are books. Unlike digital media,
and anything requiring electricity,
they need only the ability to read
for them to be enjoyed,
their age does not matter.
In fact because of 'the cannon effect'
the older some books and authors become
the more they are revered
for influencing later literature;
with influence there is no surplus
-greater age makes it stronger,
and reveals how easy changed
the modern world is.
Wednesday, 22 September 2021
Better Time Mismanagement
Years ago I had a friend
who was quite able minded
whilst being physically disabled.
He was adept with walking sticks,
a wheelchair and he even had a car
adapted around what he could not do.
It was curious to be around him,
I'd always been able bodied
but I had long been unemployable
-I had spent too long unemployed
to know how to sell myself to anyone.
I was best left to do my own thing, cheaply.
He spent many a daytime hour in hospital
being checked up and having wounds redressed,
and spending long times just waiting to be seen.
I was more cruel than I meant to be when I said
'Being ill is a part time job', but my words had their effect.
Eventually he found employers to work for
who could adapt what they did around the limits
that he set for them which was more than I could do.
Mentally, he was was much better off working,
than waiting patiently to be a patient in a queue
that always recycled itself as the ill and unattended,
had to reinvent themselves as both new and useless.
Tuesday, 21 September 2021
Are We Deaf To Life On Other Planets?
If we are then that might account
to how blind we are to the life
on the planet we presently live on,
where the wilder a species is
the more we think that extinction
might suit it more,
as we destroy it's habitat.
And the corporations that rule
over the seven continents
enjoy inspiring eco-doom,
because such easy despair
at our apparent lack of agency
makes their dominion easier
as we think that we can do nothing
to halt the reducing of the species.
Monday, 20 September 2021
On Watching Operas
for the first time in my life;
I can't help but wonder
at the tunes and the plots,
and I can't get over how like
film noir they all are, so far.
They start with a death
and explore the life
of the one who has died
and who killed them
then report of the corruption
in their circumstances.
I could mention testosterone
but what would be the point?
being larger than life is what matters,
and for being oversized
the characters tend not to be wise,
and leave behind lives left in tatters.
Sunday, 19 September 2021
To Be Political
without being astute
is surely 'good for protest'
but protests will only get
a would-be-prophet so far
before they get the wrong side of history
-the place where they have no agency.
Not to worry for those who end up there,
having intended to be somewhere else,
eternity is full of such misplaced journeys.
Saturday, 18 September 2021
Friday, 17 September 2021
Jim Hendrix
Will always be remembered as 'a free spirit', as a person who tore through the nonsense of every day life as a talented musician whilst being himself, as he was put on show before a world who only saw and heard what they wanted to, particularly whilst stoned Here is Charles Shaar Murray and others explaining why he will always matter. why he will always matter |
Thursday, 16 September 2021
I Can't See My Way
out of the present 'impasse politics',
where from one extreme
what I see is a fake unity,
where political leaders
fight each other, for primacy
over each other's followers,
and on another extreme
the diversity is genuine
as long as nobody mentions
politics or anything else
by which we might be divided.
Who knew the having convictions
causes that many divisions
that we are self-dividing?
Wednesday, 15 September 2021
The Artist's Beard
Tuesday, 14 September 2021
'It is Not For Me, It Is For The Others'
Shell company, shell country,
shell structure inside another
where all the drive is sucked out,
all the former life smothered.
As new rules were applied,
that nobody wanted for themselves
but the wealthiest all agreed
were fit to be applied to others.
Monday, 13 September 2021
The Junk Life
I hear that the bad news in the UK
is that there are not enough lorry drivers
to distribute the mountains of materials
to support the national appetite for junk food
that UK citizens like to see as their proper choice.
What a small loss of choice it is,
beneath the surface of appearances.
The food stuffs that were once transported
were part of a false sense of well-being
that they pat each other on the back with,
as if such false reassurance were vital.
Maybe when the government
raises it's quota of home trained lorry drivers
then it will realise more what it wants them for,
and with that will come the desire
to see more clearly past the false cheer
of junk living fuelled by junk advertising,
in homage to life in America.
Sunday, 12 September 2021
A Sporting Chance?
I wonder when green energy,
and manufactures of healthier food,
will become the regular sponsors
of the international sports events
that come around every four years.
I wonder how much longer
it will take for the values of said sponsors
to infuse the organising of the events,
such that after the event is over
what is left of the sites has
a more productive better future?
I am not putting any bets
on such Utopian thinking,
not least because the win-win nature
of the technology and economy
would be so against the win-lose nature
of nation competing against nation,
where the very essence of the entertainment
is much too competitive for words.
Saturday, 11 September 2021
Faith In Change
As a Socialist I have to have faith
in the sort of government I hope for.
I see so little proof of what I want to see
that hope is the only way to see it;
so little else exists to sustain me
in the long dark night of Capitalist rule.
But I know that socialism
is like non-violent action,
it has to be spurred to flower
by injustice. And when it flowers
it changes a lot more than the slight
that spurred it into being,
which as it is changed denies
the source that made it change.
Non-violent protest existed long before
it first got a name, in colonial India,
a century ago as a response
to a government so detached
that as it became more violent
and spoke of 'maintaining the peace'
it fail to recognise that the resistance to it,
was born of the distance between
it's actions and it's words.
According to half-reputable sources
there have been some sixty two
non-violent uprisings since Gandhi
gave the idea a name and foundation,
many of which are ongoing.
some of which completed their task.
But all change,
even change for the better
is always temporary,
though change for the worse
often feels more fixed.
Friday, 10 September 2021
Do Countries Ever Learn From Their Pasts?
My answer to that is a very firm 'No',
particularly when they police the world
and have a sign on them which says
'Democracy for export, but not at home.'.
In the latest example of being driven by paradox
(Republican) men in Texas have prohibited abortion,
a service in which women seek control of their bodies,
for every and any reason they want it,
not just after when they have been raped
or when the foetus will not live
and carrying it could end their lives.
This puts women who seek control of their fertility
in a similar position to the one that America
put makers of alcohol in over a hundred years ago.
We know what happened then,
the prohibition lasted thirteen years,
and continued after by criminal gangs,
who saw civil regulation and taxation
as 'against their interests' such that
the biggest gangsters could only be caught
for laundering money and fraudulent accounting.
I look forward to women creating their own
enduring and altruistic networks
where they take care of each other
and resist the men who think they own the universe.
I look forward the slow breakdown
of contrarian patriarchal Politics from within.
Thursday, 9 September 2021
Wednesday, 8 September 2021
The Potency Of Very Cheap Music
Looking through the racks
of popular music CD's
on the Sunday market,
the best time I have to browse,
I see only things I don't want to buy
and I can't remember when last
I bought a CD from a stall
like the ones i see before me.
I realise that 'popular music'
puts poor poetry to indifferent music
on the hope that the combination
will transform both,
when usually it does not.
And when that does not work
then there is the hope of the sales pitch
to distinguish the music,
from that which is similar
in the mono culture that is popular music.
As if the pitch of such majoritism
will do the trick and be an end in itself.
A conspiracy of silence would be better.
Tuesday, 7 September 2021
How To Shrink A Life Without Appearing To So
'Garbage in, garbage out'
was a phrase I first heard
when I studied computers
and had to programme them
in strange codes, circa 1980.
The odd thing was how
the care with language
that we showed towards
the 1950's machines we used
we did not apply to ourselves
or the people of status around us.
All too many of the people I knew
were so accomplished in telling lies
in order to seem kind and friendly
that when they diminished other people's lives
neither they nor the people who's lives
they had diminished saw the difference.
The kindness in their lies
hid the fears in their eyes
of being blind guides,
there to lead others towards the pit
where who they lead felt afraid
of how they had lied themselves
into a corner that had no exit.
Monday, 6 September 2021
I Am The Landscape
Saint Eadwold (835-900) was a 9th hermit/saint. He wandered the woods naked, like a monastic Adam |
who had no Eve, searching for God, whilst living on what he found to eat. His faith made him a conduit for many miracles, received by other people. |
Sunday, 5 September 2021
Sex And Travel
On my mantel piece
I used to have a notice
that read 'Sex is science fiction'.
I kept it there to remind myself
of the depth of my disappointment
with regard to sexual experience.
Since then I have recovered
from the memory of the dystopian
sexuality foisted upon me in my youth
where I could not see the wood for the trees
as men lay claim to the world around them
according to how big they believed their willies were
over the heads of others, who for being bound by taboo,
did not have the courage to gainsay the claim
held over them, in the pursuit of possession.
Very few men were as well endowed
as they said, which made them effective liars
as they made other people their property.
I should have taken my cues from Dr Who,
and the pseudo science of the T.A.R.D.I.S.
with regard the size of an item vs it's ability
to be a transport of delight, in several ways
willies were similar to the T.A.R.D.I.S.
Like the penis the T.A.R.D.I.S. feels bigger inside
to it's owner than it looks to others from without,
-both are spaces that their owners can
both literally and metaphorically lose themselves in,
-neither does what their owners say they want,
-both are improved by companionship
through a shared aptitude for finding monsters,
-finally both are improved for not being earthbound
or confined to one place.
Where they are both kind,
in spite of its limits placed on them
they both work best as a small sensitive objects
in an infinite and varied universe.
Saturday, 4 September 2021
The Imitation Of Life
When we have the urge to rebel
we never know how near or far we
from living out yet another empty gesture
where we are is not ourselves
and we don't know how to refresh our selves
because we don't know how stale we have become
or if we ever will outlive the emptiness that so easily imitates us.
Friday, 3 September 2021
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Thursday, 2 September 2021
Lest We Forget - An Essay On The Timeline of The Covid Virus And The UK Government Responses To It
On the third Friday of January 2020 a silent and stealthy killer was creeping across the world. Passing from person to person and borne on ships and planes, the coronavirus was already leaving a trail of bodies. The virus had spread from China to six countries and was almost certainly in many others.
Sensing the coming danger, the British government briefly went into wartime mode that day, holding a meeting of Cobra, its national crisis committee. But it took just an hour that January 24 lunchtime to brush aside the coronavirus threat. Matt Hancock, the health secretary, bounced out of Whitehall after chairing the meeting and breezily told reporters the risk to the UK public was “low”. This was despite the publication that day of an alarming study by Chinese doctors in the medical journal, The Lancet. It assessed the lethal potential of the virus, for the first time suggesting it was comparable to the 1918 Spanish flu pandemic, which killed up to 50 million people. Unusually, Boris Johnson had been absent from Cobra. The committee — which includes ministers, intelligence chiefs and military generals — gathers at moments of great peril such as terrorist attacks, natural disasters and other threats to the nation and is normally chaired by the prime minister. Johnson had found time that day, however, to join in a lunar new year dragon eyes ritual as part of Downing Street’s reception for the Chinese community, led by the country’s ambassador. It was a big day for Johnson and there was a triumphal mood in Downing Street because the withdrawal treaty from the European Union was being signed in the late afternoon. It could have been the defining moment of his premiership — but that was before the world changed. That afternoon his spokesman played down the looming threat from the east and reassured the nation that we were “well prepared for any new diseases”. The confident, almost nonchalant, attitude displayed that day in January would continue for more than a month.Johnson went on to miss four further Cobra meetings on the virus. As Britain was hit by unprecedented flooding, he completed the EU withdrawal, reshuffled his cabinet and then went away to the grace-and-favour country retreat at Chevening where he spent most of the two weeks over half-term with his pregnant fiancée, Carrie Symonds. It would not be until March 2 — another five weeks — that Johnson would attend a Cobra meeting about the coronavirus. But by then it was almost certainly too late. The virus had sneaked into our airports, our trains, our workplaces and our homes. Britain was on course for one of the worst infections of the most deadly virus to have hit the world in more than a century.
One day there will inevitably be an inquiry into the lack of preparations during those “lost” five weeks from January 24. There will be questions about when politicians understood the severity of the threat, what the scientists told them and why so little was done to equip the National Health Service for the coming crisis. It will be the politicians who will face the most intense scrutiny. Among the key points likely to be explored will be why it took so long to recognise an urgent need for a massive boost in supplies of personal protective equipment (PPE) for health workers; ventilators to treat acute respiratory symptoms; and tests to detect the infection. Any inquiry may also ask whether the government’s failure to get to grips with the scale of the crisis in those early days had the knock-on effect of the national lockdown being introduced days or even weeks too late, causing many thousands more unnecessary deaths.
An investigation has talked to scientists, academics, doctors, emergency planners, public officials and politicians about the root of the crisis and whether the government should have known sooner and acted more swiftly to kick-start the Whitehall machine and put the NHS onto a war footing. They told us that, contrary to the official line, Britain was in a poor state of readiness for a pandemic. Emergency stockpiles of PPE had severely dwindled and gone out of date after becoming a low priority in the years of austerity cuts. The training to prepare key workers for a pandemic had been put on hold for two years while contingency planning was diverted to deal with a possible no-deal Brexit. This made it doubly important that the government hit the ground running in late January and early February. Scientists said the threat from the coming storm was clear. Indeed, one of the government’s key advisory committees was given a dire warning a month earlier than has previously been admitted about the prospect of having to deal with mass casualties
.It was a message repeated throughout February but the warnings appear to have fallen on deaf ears. The need, for example, to boost emergency supplies of protective masks and gowns for health workers was pressing, but little progress was made in obtaining the items from the manufacturers, mainly in China. Instead, the government sent supplies the other way — shipping 279,000 items of its depleted stockpile of protective equipment to China during this period, following a request for help from the authorities there. The prime minister had been sunning himself with his girlfriend in the millionaires’ Caribbean resort of Mustique when China first alerted the World Health Organisation (WHO) on December 31 that several cases of an unusual pneumonia had been recorded in Wuhan, a city of 11 million people in Hubei province.
The Spanish flu had an estimated infectivity rate of between 2.0 and 3.0, so Ferguson’s finding was shocking. The professor’s other bombshell in the same report was that there needed to be a 60% cut in the transmission rate — which meant stopping contact between people. In layman’s terms it meant a lockdown, a move that would paralyse an economy already facing a battering from Brexit. At the time such a suggestion was unthinkable in the government and belonged to the world of post-apocalypse movies.
Sure enough, five days later on Wednesday, January 29, the first coronavirus cases on British soil were found when two Chinese nationals from the same family fell ill at a hotel in York. The next day, the government raised the threat level from low to moderate.
The first order for equipment under the “just in time” protocol was made on January 30. However, the source said that attempts to call in these “just in time” contracts immediately ran into difficulties in February because they were mostly with Chinese manufacturers who were facing unprecedented demand from the country’s own health service and elsewhere. This was another nail in the coffin for the pandemic plan. “It was a massive spider’s web of failing, every domino has fallen,” said the source. The NHS could have contacted UK-based suppliers. The British Healthcare Trades Association (BHTA) was ready to help supply PPE in February — and throughout March — but it was only on April 1 that its offer of help was accepted.
Dr Simon Festing, the organisation’s chief executive, said: “Orders undoubtedly went overseas instead of to the NHS because of the missed opportunities in the procurement process.”. Downing Street admitted on February 24 — just five days before NHS chiefs warned a lack of PPE left the health service facing a “nightmare” — that the UK government had supplied 1,800 pairs of goggles and 43,000 disposable gloves, 194,000 sanitising wipes, 37,500 medical gowns and 2,500 face masks to China.