Want And Company

The older I get the longer it becomes
since I watched television everyday. 
Though in all it's variety, youtube
makes an interesting vice - as part of the online life.

There I know I am meant to be writing, but the chatter distracts me.

Nowadays I have a more purely audio life,
I like it when people speak in whole sentences
and carry a thought forward in response
to another speaker who is doing the same. 

Speech based Radio has had me in it's grip
since the mid 1980's and still has the means
of transporting me. What I miss, more than I can say,
is the rich in person conversations, sat with friends,
that I used to have as a balance against my radio habit.

I write 'more than I can say' here. But of course I can say it
-but nowadays I have too few people to say that I miss
human company to/with. Whoever I seek company with
lets me share that all too rarely,
lest my company seem not apt for the occasion. 

The print media remains online for loners, so I write
but the people I used to joke, laugh, and lie with
have all gone, that is why can't say what and who I miss.

I would not be missing them if they were with me
and neither would I be writing out how I can't say
who I miss, because of the presence of people around me.