On Being 'In Recovery'

of enjoying reading once again, after over a year
where I was able to read just a few pages of a book,
and would then fall asleep and forget whati I'd read,
as if the point of reading was to prompt me
to some increasingly forgetful horisontality
where if I remember my dreams, it is only
because my medication was light enough
to allow me to focus on my thoughts
in the immiediate time before I awoke.

Now I am back and reading whole books
and, mostly. remembering what I have read
after I read it, and when the algorithms
of what I watch on the internet go too fast
I change what I give my attention to,
to something slower that enhances the pleasure
in what I read, rather than diminshing my attention span.