The Limits Of Human Company

There is many a time
that much as I seem sociable
it is more show than substance.
But show seems to be 'enough'.

Enough for that moment
with that person, but insufficient
for me to escape the nagging emptiness
where what would assure me most is beng alone.
Being where nobody seeks after my company
or for me to use what life skills I have
to make me some temporary companion.

When I give but I don't feel my giving.
I am still living, but I am numb
towards my own generosity of spirit.